Tuesday, May 19, 2009

weird dreams

What does it mean to be walking in the water on potato sized soft rocks that you can see through the water along a shoreline searching for your husband while simultaneously avoiding some type of terrorists? Then you see a bridge in the distance, you know it's the bridge to your favorite beach (in waking life) and you start to fear that you can't keep walking around it so you contemplate crossing over it. Meanwhile as you continue to walk in the water, you see large empty row boats that crew teams use. there are a bunch of them floating around and they look extra large. They also happen to be the boats from your son's high school crew team. It's also really hot out and the water is almost stagnant, not really moving.
Sometimes I think I just make up my dreams as I am dreaming and they mean absolutely nothing. At times I just get tired of dreaming so much and wish I would just sleep soundly.

Saturday, May 16, 2009

notice the ticker changed?

Yay! I finally lost two pounds. It took me four weeks. I'll take the loss. I look at it this way, if I lose 2 pounds a month for the next year that would equal 24 pounds. So yeah, I'll take it. Losing any amount of poundage is always better than gaining.
I have been doing so much better paying attention to my well being lately. I feel good. & I hope you're feeling good too.Isn't this the coolest bracelet? When I lose 10 more pounds I am going to buy myself something like this to celebrate.

Monday, May 11, 2009

mother's day aftermath

Priscilla Princess

Yesterday was a strange Mother's Day for me. I thought of how this was the first Mother's Day my Mom's mother is no longer with us. and I thought of my godmother, (my grandmother's daughter) in the hospital who just had a tracheotomy. they still do not know what caused her respiratory distress so she will be getting more tests. With the tracheotomy she is partially breathing on her own and she has been writing us notes so that is good news. Hopefully we will know more today.

Saturday night I came home from a trip to Connecticut for my nieces first holy Communion and found our Priscilla had had another seizure while she was home alone. Thankfully she is perfectly fine now with the exception of her epilepsy which strikes in its own timeline without warning. She is under a doctor's care who prescribes medication and also instructs me to watch her for the first 24 hours after a seizure since that seems to be when she most likely will have another one or a series of them.
If you saw her curled up in a ball on the couch pillows right now you would never guess the trauma her little body recently went through.
I saw my own mom early in the morning yesterday to wish her happiness and drop off a gift. We were all to go to my brothers for brunch but like Priscilla, my Dad wasn't feeling well so my Mom took my son with her to spend time with his dear cousins. My husband visited his Mom with his brother and I stayed home with Priscilla. Despite everything that is going on I feel very grateful. This is my life but for today all is well. It may not seem like it is but when I think about it, right at this very moment all is well.

"...that thou art happy, thou owest to God;
that thou continuest such, thou owest to thyself."~ John Milton: Paradise Lost

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

a favorite artist releases his debut album,

please go here to check it out. My favorite song is "Now is the Time". You can hear it on his myspace page by clicking here.
In this piece, Ian France uses a sound recording taken from a Martin Luther King speech and pairs it with his own electronica composition resulting in what seems to me a reflection of what is going on in the world around us today. The rest of the music is pretty cool too.

Monday, May 4, 2009

my aunt is very sick

She is also my godmother and her name is Doris. Please pray for her. If she makes it, she will have a long road to recovery. She has many health problems and the doctors aren't sure what exactly is causing her critical condition. This morning she was in respiratory distress and had to be put on a ventilator. She is stable at this moment but she remains in the intensive care unit at the hospital.
Thank you for your prayers. I hope to post here again very soon. I have missed my Lily blog very much. I hope this message finds you all well.